shivers

I dreamt about you last night, not completely you but still you. She told me she was your older sister and that she knew I loved you. As much as I wanted to deny it I couldn’t. I couldn’t because she wouldn’t let me, she stood over my shoulder and kept repeating the same words over and over again, her warm breath fanned against my neck. Oh how that gave me shivers, shivers so hard that it woke me up. I woke up in my dark room wishing you were next to me. She looked just like you, exactly the same, despite claiming she was your older sister I think it was you, who else could give me such intense shivers? Your eyes used to hold this mischievous look whenever you gave me shivers but in my dream your eyes held so much intensity that it scared me. Your look made me wonder if you were going to pounce on me, destroy me in the most lovely way, make me not want to live without you but oh baby don’t worry because I’ll return the favour. I’ll make you miss me when I leave for work, I’ll make you miss the way I prepare your tea, miss the way I kiss you good morning. We will travel the world and leave our mark so it’ll be impossible to return without the other. I’ll destroy you and you’ll destroy me yet we won’t feel destroyed when we’re together only when we’re apart will we feel that pain and that void in our body, soul and heart. We won’t be able to live without the other.