parents

Disappointment is apparently what I have brought to me father tonight by refusing to sleep at his house, sad to say if I got mad every time he said no to me I'd be mad my whole life.What is up with parents not appreciating their children, since when is it alright for a parent to expect so much out of a child a 17 year old child? Since when is it alright to tell your child that they aren't good for anything, that they can't do anything right? Why do parents make it their mission to break us down instead of building us up. I need my parents to encourage me in what I'm good at and help me in what I'm bad at. Yes mom I would like for you to ask me about my writing, for you to finally show some interest in what I like doing instead of drilling me about finding a real job because writing won't pay the bills. I know, I know writing doesn't pay the bills but guess what mom, I can do writing on the side, that's what I want. Wouldn't that be nice? Being an English teacher and write on the side. Novels, short stories, maybe even give some workshops to others who need some support. Sharing knowledge, expanding minds, oh what a dream. So dad, since when is it alright to tell me to work harder after I proved to you I did all I could yet I still didn't make it? Maybe you should consider getting me a tutor or some help. I can't do everything alone, I can't manage alone, I know that eventually I will have to but right now I just need some of your help. Some families manage to make you feel like crap even during the holidays, yes my anxiety has been worse during this christmas break due to my family but I know I;ll be going off to college in July. 6 months, that's all I'm asking for from all you seniors out there just give it 6 months. You will be free eventually, you will be able to create the path that you want to follow, you might not know what that path is yet but soon you will find yourself following a path that you never set out to follow but you'll find yourself enjoying it.