magical

It was magical, I had a Christmas dinner with the school seniors and we danced and laughed and just had some sober fun you know, I kinda forgot what it was like to not have to drink to have such a good time. After it ended my classmates and I decided to go to the beach, we ran on the beach and damn it was magical, it felt like we were a movie until I tripped and fell in the sand. If only you cared, if only you actually stuck with me, if only you acknowledged my love for you, if only if only if only. I have so many questions yet knowing the answer might break me even more than you already have. I don't understand why my last text posts have been about you, you've made your feelings towards me very clear. Guys say they want a loyal woman yet when they have her they think with the head between their legs. Oh baby how I miss you, I miss our friendship you were my best friend and now look at us, broken up and not even friends anymore. I might write a lot about you and our story yet I wouldn't want you back darling, I wouldn't want someone who treated me so bad back. "Yes I like you yet I think friend with benefits would be better" that was the last straw because when you said those words I knew that the guy I once loved had vanished.