diary entry?

So what is this? Do I start all my entrees with the word 'So' but beside that this day started out ordinary but my friends made it great. My little cousin spend almost the whole afternoon with me being silly goddamn I do love her to death. I'm going to miss her when I leave to go study, if I ever get there. I made 5 exams a week and a half ago, just guess how many I actually aced? Never mind I'll just tell you, I got 2 B's and 3 F's guess who is going to get murdered by her mom yes this girl. I'm not going home for the weekend, I'm spending the weekend at my dad's house and he's letting me go out tonight which I technically don't deserve due to the grades yet he said I need to vent. What's done is done, I can't change the grades anymore yet I do have a resit for math. Is it bad I wanna get really drunk just to forget the grades, forget his face, forget everything? It probably is yet I can't be bothered to care, I can't be bothered to do anything anymore, the only think I want to do is sit outside stare at the moon and cry. Cry for my dead uncle, cry for my bad grades, cry for the past, basically cry for everything bad that has ever happened to me. Not all my memories are shitty yet most of them are, I have some pretty good memories of when I used to make mud pies with my cousins, we used to run in the rain and play outside in our underwear all the time. Goddamn I feel bad like really bad but just a bad day not a bad life right? That's what I remind myself everyday.