inevitable

Perfection seemed to be something I thought could never be achieved. That was until I met you, you hypnotized me with your eyes and had me hooked on your voice. Every touch send my heart into a frenzy, it would beat so fast I for sure thought it would explode. Your words send my brain into overdrive, not letting me forget a single word you said to me, still not letting me forget. The voice you would tell me you loved me oh god how much I loved hearing you say that. Although back then I actually thought you meant them but now I know it was all a facade but oh baby remember how I did mean the "i love you"s. Those 3 words that ruined my whole existence those words that ruined my wellbeing, my heart, my soul, me. You ruined me with those words, you ruined me when you left, leaving me to cut my hands trying to pick up the pieces you left me in. But god I loved you, loving you was never a chore but more like blinking. Loving you was inevitable, yet hating you for all these heart aches is also inevitable. Not only did I cut my hands on the broken pieces but with you walking over them shattering them made me lose it, made those pieces unrepairable. You took away my happiness but oh how foolish of me to put something so important in the slippery hands of someone so clumsy. It slipped right through those rough hands and got swallowed by a black hole. I've been unable to find it ever since, unable to truly be happy without having this chest ache wash over reminding me I'm still missing a few shattered pieces of the person I was before you came along.