02/14/15 - present day

i remember the day we met

how careful we were around each other

how we sent each other little innocent smiles

how our arms would brush against each other

i remember you pulling me to stand between your thighs to hide you from someone you didn't want to see

i remember looking deep into your eyes, you looked so beautiful 

i remember us subtly flirting with each other

sharing drinks

dancing together

laughing together

i remember how short you were but then realising that i was wearing heels

even without heels I'm slightly taller

you letting me sit in front

i remember subtly asking you for your number

talking for 10 minutes in the car after the others had gotten out

kissing you on the cheek after you dropped us off at home

us talking the remainder of the night

us sharing everything together

getting to know each other

become close friends

texting every single day

seeing you every single day

sleeping next to each other 

driving around together

being each others everything

it was all the heart break that came along with you

all the betrayal i felt after i found out

all the fights we had

all the pointless arguments we had

all the screaming and crying 

all the heartache

all the sleepless nights

all those tears spilled

because i fell in love

because you didn't know what you wanted 

because we were never meant to be together

never meant to be friends

never meant to be more

because we are toxic together

i am toxic, you are toxic

and together we wouldn't make it

we made each other stronger, we learned from each other 

in the end we are now better people, maybe still a bit bend but better people

we are trying again
we are starting over
a time difference isn't ideal
a time difference is helping us not fall back into
our old habits

it isn't the first time we've tried again
it isn't the first time we are staring over
it isn't the first time everything went wrong

trying again is going good
trying to slowly mend all the cracks we created
trying to find a way to trust one another again
trying to find the perfect balance between too much and too little
trying to just be comfortable with each other again
trying to trust each other again

in the end we always come back together no matter how many times we part ways
we have both changed
a lot of soul searching has happened
we have learned through hard experiences that nothing will ever go our way
we've both experienced karma in the worst way possible
we have both learned to treat each other better
to treat ourselves better
its never too late
apologies have been said
apologies have been accept

days, months, years, we'll see what becomes of us