forever in my drafts

29/10/2015
empty promises were all you could deliver
even when you tried to be good for me
you couldn't
i know you tried but you just couldn't keep it together
you threw around promises like they meant nothing
like you could actually keep them
but you can't can you?
it isn't as easy as 123 now is it
not as easy as you had hoped
im not as easy as you had hoped
you had me spellbound
with the slightest touches
i craved you like you were the cure to my insanity


21/04/2016
promises fulfilled
but not by you
promises accomplished by myself
just me
promised i wouldn't cry about you anymore
promised i wouldn't look you up anymore
and i succeeded, i don't care for you anymore
i don't bother to listen when people try to tell me about you
im not responsible for you anymore
you aren't my light anymore
i broke the spell, i broke your curse


19/06/2016
seeing your face again for the first time in a few months
disappointed in myself for letting it bother me
still looking as good as you did before
more ink decorating your arms now
more fake smiles casted towards others
you think i don't notice
its everyone else who doesn't
still surrounding yourself with shitty people
you always complained no one ever listened
but i did
i always listened
i always cared
but do i still get to care after all this time?
i can't tell anymore

18/08/2016
being in holland for almost a month
remembering you were important to me
remembering you don't even remember me
moving on by moving away