diary entry

It's almost 11pm which is usually not my breaking down hour but I guess today is different. She didn't acknowledge my existence, she hasn't really in a while now. I guess you can say we got really close really fast. Letting her into my personal space wasn't hard at all, she has this aura which made me feel at home. Feeling at home is something I haven't felt in a while. We shared what I think was all our deepest darkest secrets if you can call them that. She hasn't bolted to the door yet which is what I usually expect when I share my story with new people and after what she has trusted me with I don't plan on leaving either. I want to help her feel better yet there is always this wall when we get a bit too cozy with each other. I guess this whole entry is about how I'm starting to like this amazing girl who I started talking to again only two weeks ago. We used to go to school together 5 to 6 years ago, she used to scare me back then. I know I shouldn't get attached because it usually backfires the person leaves but she promised me she's not like everyone else who has left, she promised me she'll stay with me. I hope that if she reads this she won't shut me out nor think I've absolutely lost my senses. She's almost the only person who can make me cry of laughter after we were just screaming at each other a few minutes before, she intrigues me but most of all she makes me want to become a better person.