you

its realising all the mistakes i made while we were together

its realising all the times i had the chances to kiss you but i didn’t

its realising all the "i love you’s” i could’ve confessed to you but didn’t

its realising that i shouldn’t have had to said it because all my actions expressed it to you

every phone call

every errand run

every ‘drive safe’

every god damn night we spend together
every god damn time i held you tight in my arms

you should’ve known that i loved you yet you didn’t

i of all people should’ve known that you wouldn’t pick up on that, that you would be oblivious of my love for you

and after all this time i just can't get rid of you

its months later and now we spoke and apologised

its months since we both lost ourselves in the depths of our bad decisions 

its months and yet i can't let you go

its months and i still love you