donderdag 19 november 2015

our own personal heroin

"he can make you see the world through his eyes"
"he makes you love him like he’s the last man alive"

"he makes you feel everything and nothing at once"
"he makes me feel so special without even trying"

what is it like for a pair of best friends to fall in love with the same guy?


its knowing exactly how he sleeps
knowing how he sweet talks someone
knowing how he is literally the devil in disguise 
its feeling everything and nothing at the same time while being his
its talking to him till fucking dawn because neither of us can bare to stop talking to the other
its smiling at your phone, waiting for his texts and calls
its falling so irrevocably in love with him
because he seems to perfect
he seems so kind, caring, loving
he seems like the best damn person to share your life with

up until he leaves
he will leave 
but his memory will stay
like a goddamn stain in your goddamn mind
a stain you can't get out no matter how fucking hard you try
he will leave you with all the promises he makes yet cannot fulfil

he won't feel an inch of remorse

and when he sees you on the street, it will be as if nothing ever happened
as if he doesn't even remember those nights of deep conversations nor freezing nights where he provided you with his body heat
as if you never meant a damn thing to him

its calling that best friend, sobbing while they console you
knowing what it feels like to be played by such a dedicated player

its wondering who destroyed him?

because thats all he's doing to others right now

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