negativity

You know this will be about you so don't take it personally. What you told me is true I am a negative person I do close myself up when people try to get in, it is hard for me because I've been hurt so bad and I don't like the feeling at all and as I've told you the less you expect the less disappointed you will be. Maybe I am so negative because all I hear around me is that I will fail or that I have to be perfect and that if I'm not perfect then it doesn't matter, that you cannot fail when you try that you have to on your a game every single time you try something and that failure is not an option and with a history of your family you will be a disappointment. Thank you for telling me in my face that I am a negative person because I will show you how much of a positive person I can be and that I will not change for you but for myself, to make myself a better person yes I was hurt when you told me and yes I walked away but thank you because I will learn from this and owning a great friend can see that to you in your face and thanks for being a great friend.

pointless

//10:23//

i can't seem to stop thinking
about you

can't seem to stop fantasizing
about us

is it really pointless?

perhaps as pointless
as this poem

perhaps as pointless
as me loving you

remind me not to pour so little milk in
my coffee

because it'll resemble the
color of your eyes

help me to stop writing about
you because it really is

pointless

just you

your eyes are the color of coffee
your scent smells like roses
lanky slim body
why?
you.
your voice so low like the angels are singing
your personality closed off but like no other
oh what have you done?
love poems about you already?
really?
is this even a poem?
you aren't the definition of perfect
but neither am i
but are you perfect for me?
not hardly
guess i don't want perfection then
just you

okay?